Another case of Mom Guilt

I've come down with another case of mom guilt. All of you moms know what I'm talking about. We want to do everything right and beat ourselves up when we feel like we fall short.
Lately, it's been over food. Before Ethan was born I had every intention of making organic baby food. I started out making it, but after a few times I got lazy. It's not even that it's difficult because it's not. I am just plain lazy. I still buy mostly organic baby food, but it's expensive and I can't help but feel like I should have done more. I think mostly I feel like other moms might be judging me even if they aren't. When I was a kid my mom gave me baby food that wasn't organic and I turned out okay.
Lately, I've realized that every mom has something that they feel guilt over and we tend to compare ourselves to other moms. Whether it's comparing because we know our kids are doing something faster than others, or it's comparing because we want to make sure that our kids are not behind. Logically I know that every kid grows and hits milestones at different times and the books aren't always right. I need to let my kid be and he'll do it when he's ready. I wish I could just do that.
I also feel mom guilt about going back to work. I have to do it and I know it will all be fine, but I still feel guilty and sad. I'm also jealous of those moms who get the chance to stay home full time. I should be grateful that we can afford for me to go back to work part time. Some moms have no choice.
Basically, I guess, I'm just a big complainer today. I'll get over my mom guilt or find something else to feel guilty over, but I'm glad that I recognize it. I think I'd be in denial if I didn't.
For all those moms who have to work I feel your pain and your guilt. Please don't beat yourself up about it. We all can only do our best for our kids and we should be okay with that. No one is the perfect parent, so why should we expect ourselves to be?

Licking His Food

I wish that I had a picture of this, but Ethan doesn't really like to open his mouth to eat his food. He just likes to lick it. The pediatrician says that it doesn't mean he's not ready for solids. I guess he's just checking out the food. We'll keep trying and hopefully by mid August we'll have the food thing down.
He's tried carrots, peas, sweet potatoes, avocados, pears, apples & bananas. He's also tried barley cereal, rice cereal, oatmeal and multi-grain cereal. He hates the rice cereal and really who can blame the poor kid? It tastes like cardboard. I tried it. Bleh!
It's funny lately to hear Ken as he feeds Ethan his dinner. "Ethan, no!" as he bats away the food and it flies onto the highchair or floor. We've recently tried giving him a spoon so he will be distracted and open his mouth for food. I think he wants the food, he just doesn't get that he has to open his mouth to get it. He watches us eat and seems very interested and once the food is in his mouth he can push it all the way back without gagging. It's a mystery! We'll see how long this licking goes on.
The pulmonologist told us at his last visit that Ethan is not a failure to thrive kid. He was 15 1/2 lbs and 25 inches long at our visit 3 weeks ago and I'm sure he's 16 lbs by now. Kids with CF have digestive problems and because of the enzymes we give him before every meal he is gaining weight beautifully. I hope he can keep this up once he gets the hang of solid foods.